My Life

Whilst it's very kind of you to give him gifts, Colin has asked me to ask everyone we know, please, for goodness sake, do not buy him novelty tins of biscuits for his birthday/Christmas this year!  We didn't eat all the ones we got last year and we never really know what to do with the tins once the biscuits are gone.

If you still want to buy him a present, can I suggest rubber ducks, liquorice allsorts or socks instead?

No one does happy like a toddler.

 

This morning I thrilled a little person by giving her a snack (a single dry cracker) and allowing her to sit on a big girl (adult) chair to eat it. There is nothing exciting about any of that but she was so excited, about the novelty of a snack and the chance to sit somewhere she's not usually allowed.

 

Then this afternoon, small madam and I have shared a can of lemonade and by shared I mean she's had a dribble from my can in a tiny cup. That combined with being allowed all the watering cans to play with (filled) has been heaven.  Again, nothing particularly special but she's acting like today is her birthday and Christmas all rolled into one!

I just wish it would stop now.  Really really stop.  I want to be better and I don't want to be scared to open my eyes in case I'm blind again.  C'mon body, is that really too much to ask for?

In three months it will have been a year.  Feels like a lifetime.

So, despite the fact that I have plenty of sewing to do, my brain is insisting that I plan out another project!

 

I need a few ideas though,  can people please comment with their fave pic/image of autumn? 

 

Have made it into the garden for the first time in a few weeks to do some gardening today!

I have:-

• picked roses for my fave vase


• started picking the apples (couldn't reach all of them so will need help on another day)


• weeded the wild strawberry patch


• cut some bay and hung it up for drying


• pruned the deadwood of one of my potted dwarf cherry tree mutants


• started pruning the apple tree (again, too big a job to finish alone)


• started deadheading the rose bushes


• tidied up all the windfall apples


• filled two trugs with weeds

Now sitting down with a cup of tea and a freshly baked cake (did I mention that I've also baked cake today?). 

I have my next hospital appointment tomorrow and I'm kind of worried because my eye isn't improving and it's scaring me a bit.  So in order to focus on happy things I'm going to make a list here of all the good stuff I've achieved recently.

1.  Sunday's larp was panic attack free.  Admittedly there weren't many fights, but still, it's a start and it's a good milestone to have hit.  It brings Katrin that little bit closer.

2. I did gym session no. 5 today and this was my first 'solo' session.  I did every exercise, managed to use all the machines, wasn't totally exhasuted at the end and accidentally lengthened my distance on the rowing machine (vision problems mean I misread it and so set myself an extra 200 metres).  Despite this I bought my split time down again!  Woo!  2.18/500m in case anyone is wondering and knows about them :P

3.  I have added more plants to the garden.  The garden is, if I say so myself, looking spectacular at the moment!  I'm loving spending time out there and really hoping to invite people round to hang out in the garden soon, whilst it's all tidy!

4.  I've finished my bodice!  It's really pretty, fitted nicely and so awesome my parents think I could wear it to a Fan Makers event.  Not much I know, but the Fan Makers Dinners were the epitome of grown up elegance in my childhood.  And this for something likely to end up as larp kit!

5.  My shorts were really baggy today.  This doesn't sound that awesome until you consider the fact that they were tight before I started the gym.  Could it be that the tummy podge is being defeated?

6.  I've tackled all the scary phonecalls I need to make for this week.  In fact I think I've tackled all the 'adult' chores (money, bills, phonecalls etc), leaving the rest of the week free for sewing and fun stuff.

7.  I have a new top just waiting for the weather to cool of a smidge so I can wear it.

8.  I am being 'social' and going out for drinks on Friday.

Sainsburys shop - done
Clean house - cleaned the kitchen.  It's a start...
Laundry (so much, where does it all come from?!) - again, have made a start.  Have also come to the conclusion we have too many bed linens...
Blog post - done!  Woo!  http://luthaiseaskit.blogspot.co.uk/2013/05/yarn-bowl.html
Thank-you letters
Letter to Ollie - done, ready to be posted
Clean tent ground sheet
Tidy front garden
Sew something (anything...) - made a baby gift, mended trousers and added a loop to a tea towel
Weed the rest of the back garden

Doesn't looks so bad now it's all written down :)

One day later I call that good progress!

So, home from hospital again.  More mixed news.  The good news is that according to the doctor (who I have now seen twice, so she does actually have a good comparison) the eye is healing nicely.  There's less red blood cells at the front, which is apparently good?

The bad news is that the pressure /still/ isn't at a level where they are happy (this morning's reading was 28, not the worst, but still not in the desired 10-20 range).  So, the current plan is to flush the eye with all the medications ever, to try and fix it.  So I've had another prescription change, got more of the woozy pills (it worries me that I seem to be adapting to them) and gained a new drop, to be done just before I go to bed.

I have another appointment on Friday morning to see if these drops are doing the job.  I suppose at least I've gone from serious medical problem to quite interesting medical puzzle?

What this means in terms of my life.  Gentle doing stuff is good and to be encouraged.  No over doing it though.  In case anyone is wondering it's very easy to tell when I'm overdoing it because I get a headache and my eye aches until I go and have a nice sit down for a bit.  Light gardening, cleaning and cooking is all ok.  Sewing is fine (yay!), gentle walking is fine and roleplay is completely fine.  Work is ok, provided I build an after work rest in, which I have so far been doing.

I currently am not allowed to drive, carry very heavy stuff (a handbag is fine, the shopping less so), run (again a tiny jog for a few paces is fine, a long run or a sprint is a no go), combat is totally out.  Not allowed to fight until I'm healed as they don't know (and I don't want to find out) what a head hit could do to me.  When I'm better (and if I want to do combat) it's going to be a case of working out what and how much and building up gradually I suspect.  Mostly I'm supposed to do as much as I think I can handle and no more. I may need to practise saying no to people...  Oh and I'm definitely not taking the weapons for the club for a while.  I can't carry them to put them in the garage and I fail to see why Colin sohuld have to, so consider my house out in terms of weapon storage.

That said, I currently see no reason why I can't be a non-combat monster on Sunday, so, provided Friday's appointment goes ok I should hopefully be there.

Well, the good news is promising.  I have a healthy (though injured) eye.  In time I should make a full recovery.  I am no longer on complete bed rest and I can go back to work (in between hospital appointments anyway).  I can go to the ic meal and possibly more important to me right now - I can garden and clean the house and cook!  My pupil is dilated due to one of my meds and may stay that way for upto a week, but it's not a problem so I can stop worrying about it.

The bad news is that the pressure has gone up again, which accounts for the headaches, the stinging eye drops and my general miserableness.  I've had a change of medication and am back on pills.  These ones might make me woozy, but also might give me pins and needles in my fingers.  Fun times.  I'm not allowed to do any combat until my eye is completely recovered incase I get another knock that messes it up.  I'm not allowed to larp at all this weekend as the pressure's not right and I might do myself more damage running around in the woods plus I'm still doing eye drops every 3-4 hours which makes larp tricky.  I have to go back to hospital on Tuesday to see how the medication is working out for me.  I can't drive either, which is making life tricky.  Poor Colin has to do all the shopping!

Still - at least I can start getting my life back together?  Going to start by sweeping and hoovering, then working out what to cook for dinner tonight.  After that I have a sneaky suspcion it might be nap time (again...)