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Jul. 13th, 2010 06:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
More Rose :)
En Route to the Capital
So… The sun is shining, the grass is green and the flowers are in full bloom. We are free! Gloriously, luxuriously, beautifully free!
Caled is smiling at me. I can smile back now. Ever since Lilium came back to us… It’s like a lead weight was lifted from around my neck. I can smile, laugh and cry again. I can feel… My thanks Our Lady. As ever you guided me. Kept me safe, kept Lilium safe... And Caled too.
We’re off to the capital now. My report is finally written and I have nothing to do, except travel, smile, talk with my friends and enjoy the feel of sun and starlight upon my face. No-one is ill, no-one is injured and our pace is relaxed. Well… I guess that’s not exactly true. I’m ill. Well, not ill exactly… Just tired I suppose. And a little underfed. I’ll be alright though. When we get to the capital Caled is off to see the sights with some of the others and I am going to visit Ana. Then we are going to Hearts Deep!
I long for home. Every fibre of my being yearns to be there. The crops must be just about ready to harvest by now. It seems so odd to think I haven’t been there for so long. I hope nothing will have changed. I hope Mother and Daddy are well, and didn’t worry too much about me, and that Morag looked after them.
Morag, dear Morag… I hope she didn’t worry too much either. I hope she won’t scold me too much after I tell her all that has happened. Goodness, I’ll probably have to tell the whole village… Huh, somehow that doesn’t seem as hard as once it might have done. I hope I feel this relaxed when the words must be spoken though!
Caled is beside me again, his face is slowly turning darker from the sun and he looks happy. He makes me laugh; he roams far and wide, running, leaping climbing, revelling in freedom, to disappear from my sight, only to reappear moments later, grinning and laughing with some surprise for me. A flower, some berries, a hidden stream surrounded by ferns, we glory in the countryside and the fact that we are no longer bound by our collars.
Freedom… I never comprehended how precious it is, until I lost it. I don’t ever want to be shut away again… I get scared still, and the nightmares… They haven’t gone away… I’m hoping Morag will have a cure for them…
Caled helps, I wake to find him there, already awake, comforting me. He makes me feel safe. What would I do with out him? Please Our Lady, say you’ve guided me rightly, and that Mother and Daddy will approve. I want them to like him so much. I can’t see why they wouldn’t, but I know they wanted to meet anyone I loved, before I loved him...
For I do love Caled. Without him I’d have been lost. He saves me, and he loves me.
Lilium is beside me now. I hug her a lot at the moment; I can’t bear to think how close we came to losing her. She’s so precious… To all of us… I don’t think she realises how much she means to us. She’s changed since she came back. Like all of us, she’s happier, more confident and sillier.
We’ve all grown silly. We play tricks; tell jokes, tickle each other… I think it is joy in the knowledge we are free.
That’s what it comes down to really. Simple, glorious, freedom.
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Date: 2010-07-14 07:51 pm (UTC)Tickling? to that i say ironskin cast down to last 16 hours.